I hope this is the year the metrosexual is out. I can't have my heart be broken again and again --- this is a long story but it's sort of kind of not really. but part of the reason I resent bisexual men. They break my stupid little heart. But who cares. I'm over performative-ness, this will be the year of geniune-ness. I'm tired of everyone trying to "out-weird" eachother. It feels pointless and stupid. Also I hope being sickly thin is out of fashion. With the rise of 2000s fashion comes the eating habits of the 2000s and I'm so tired of pretending that's normal. It's not.
This is the year I hope I get better at responding to messages and emails. I really suck. I don't know if it's because I like to protect my peace or because I'm too anxious, I don't know, but I'm not the best at responding to things when I first read them. I feel paralyized. I think this will be the year of embracing oneself and trying new things, pushing your comfortzone but in a very comftorable manner. Ease into the uncomfort, like dipping your toes in cold water. I want to journal more this year too. I always have thoughts and narrate them in my head, but I think journaling is a good way to get them out and down. Also, it's sort of a sweet time capsule which is nice to look back on.
I'm also secretly hoping this is the year I start posting myself online again. I miss my mini-kindom that I establsihed, and I hate that I'm too embarssed of people I know in real life seeing me post selfies to post anything. I miss my casusal posting, it was so fun and made me happy. I will try my best to go back this year and not be as embarssed or ashamed all the time. OK- thats all for right now. bye bye.
