things i want
list of my various wishies / things i'd like to do (progress incoming)
this year
- go skinny dipping
- go to a rave!!
- smoke out of a bong
- go to a bar with friends
- have a sleepover in college
- get into a fight (i think physical would be more cathartic)
- take more photos of ordinary moments
- go somewhere new by myself / explore the city more
- take friends to a jazz club/bar (our city is famous for this )
- try some kind of upper/molly something (psychedelics trigger my psychotic symptoms rlly rlly rlly bad, to a place that's scary and not fun..#icanbarelydoweedwithoutgoingcrazyandkillingeveryone #everyonedead)
- learn how to dj!!! (teaching myself, we're gonna have to invest in equiptment bc you can't rent sadly)
productive
- work on my website more consistently
- post my face more consistently without being shy
- land an internship
- watch the news in spanish
personal
- get better about going to church / meditation / worshipping saints
wear a "sexy" / crazy outfit outside without being embarrassed- get better at latte art
- get over my hatred for things that make me uncomfortable/figure out how to deal with my roomate's situationship in a way that is kind ( god, i wish lesbians were fucking normal sometimes
#whyareyouleadingonsomeonewhoyouknowisinlovewithyouandusingthemfor
sexwhilestillbeingincrediblycodependentonthembecausetheyreyourbest
friendthisislowkeyfuckedupandyoumightbegoingtohellforwhatyouvedonetothispoorgirl )
- get over myself and start activley pursuing people (it's time to break my monk vow of celibacy)
- get my nipples pierced!! #soon #summeractivities
done / in progress
- take care of scars consistently (rubbing oil / massage)
